Still can’t really get him out of my head /: , he’s back with his girlfriend now & I’m genuinely happy for them, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt at all. I need to move on, get myself a new life. Friends & college is what I’m gonna focus on for awhile, boys are just a waste of time. Going to see my nan today, she’s dying. It’s really not gonna be the best day of my life, but I’m gonna make the most of what it is.
This is the end.
Well, I knew it was coming, he let me go, but he says he still wants to see me every other day as usual & he says I was perfect for him, but because he come out of a 4 year relationship & jumped into something that was like one, it put him off. He wants freedom, I can understand that, but it hurts so fucking much. Haven’t eaten in 3 days , can’t sleep properly, it’s almost like I have nothing to look forward to anymore, now he’s gone. I was in love with him, it only took a couple of months, but yeah, I loved him. You can never really lose something you never had though right?
Dilemma
Worst feeling ever… Being in love with someone who pretends to love you back. Just leave me already, cos I’m never gonna leave you until you do /:
why guys should have sympathy for girls #periods (Taken with Instagram)
This is fucking genius =’)
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I’m come to vent….
You are a fucking cunting wanking annoying little man , now fuck off out of my life before I say or do something I’ll regret.
I don’t tend to come on tumblr a lot as it depresses me, it’s more of a place to vent your unhappiness than it is to vent all the happy things in life, so really I’m just sticking by the rules when I do this post /:
So I started crying while I was at work today and had to run to the loo because my boss don’t deal with women crying which made it worse really (you always tend to cry more when your by yourself). I’m fine with being by myself most of the time but today it got to me /:
I practically have no life at the moment, I do nothing, go nowhere and see no one. I constantly feel ugly, maybe it’s because I don’t bother making an effort anymore, my hair is always like a bush, my spots are constantly on show and I’m putting on weight by the day, I ain’t one if them that complains and don’t do nothing about it though, I mean I’m trying to lose weight, I’m trying to be pretty. Guess my trying ain’t good enough.
The one boy I want don’t want me, or only wants me for one reason, which depresses me beyond belief. I don’t know why I’m being so soppy, I’ve always been quite tough when it comes to boys and stuff, not anymore, I feel like I’m gonna break.
The only thing that’s keeping me happy is that I know I have stuff to look forward to in the near future, best focus on that rather than what’s happening in my life now.
Thank god for sunshine today! In such a shitty mood, so glad it’s sunny or I would of been on a depressive one all day.
Someone keeps playing games with me and it’s driving me insane, he blows hot and cold every five minutes /: , one minute he is all over me, next minute he don’t wanna talk… Fuck sake, doing my head in.
Need to get out and have a good laugh me thinks :)
Update….
Okay, so I have a date with ed tonight to see how things are going and if we’re ever going to pick up from where we left off. I still love him, like deep down I really do, just you can only get knocked down so many times in a relationship before that spark you had at the beginning slowly starts to disappear.
On the other hand there is another boy, I’ve heard so many different rumours about him that I’m just confused. I’m beginning to like him, not in a relationship way because I don’t think I’m interested in another relationship so soon ( don’t judge ). He is amazing, gorgeous, cute and just soo nice. Whether that’s the truth or not, only time will tell.
The only thing I know for sure these days is that I have great friends to work with me through all of this. Charlie my bestie, she has problems that only she can help herself with, all I can do is give her a shoulder to cry on and some friendly advice, sometimes I wish I could be in her head for five minutes to make her change her mind about the way she feels sometimes. I only hope a little bit of tlc and time will mend her as a person. Sounds ridiculous to write this on here, but I’m seriously worried about her a lot of the time.
So I propose a new bianca is in order. I will work with people to make them feel better, and to help them with the stuff they are struggling on. So char, if your reading this I’m here babe, anytime.
Also to take each day how it comes, I will try not to get my hopes up about anything so that I will never be disappointed. Bring it on!
